Perfect

Today Ms. Kow my sociology tutor distributed the sociology mid term test 1 paper back to us. Oh God, how long did she take to mark? About 1 month i guess...Sighs...

Previously, that day after my sociology presentation, she told Wan Sin - one of my sociology assignment group member, that she scored the highest for that paper. My heart stricken! I spent a lot of time on sociology, yet i could not score?! Oh damn it! That moment, i started loosing faith in myself and sociology.

When teacher called my name in class this afternoon, i asked Liang Yi to get that 'toilet' paper for me. Someone took it directly from teacher and said 'WAH' out loud. What the hell was that for?? i was wondering. That someone said i got full marks that was 50 out of 50. I couldn't believe that, and i struggled for my paper. I couldn't reach it as there were many people in front trying to have a look on that 'toilet' paper.

Finally, the 'toilet' paper reached me, i open my eyes widely. Oh my, my precious sociology paper, you are no longer a 'toilet' paper. Thank God. Those efforts weren't wasted. Wan Sin came talking to me, and i got to learn that she too scored the highest. Wow, great... a good competitor.

Everything settled down. Presentation for other group begun. During their presentation, i happily sms-ed dad and mum. Both of them replied the same thing stating that they are proud of me and i must keep up the good work. I, deep in my heart felt happy that i did not let them down.

At the end of the presentation, Ms. Kow asked the class for questions to be thrown to the presenting group. She specifically mentioned 'Wan Sin, any question? How about Yee Lin? Any question?' I'm so happy, that she could remember my name. By the way, i did the student online survey last night, and i gave Ms. Kow a good remarks. Hmm... not wasted... haha... joking...

My classmates were like kinda pouring cold water on me when they said 'Aiyo 50 marks lo...'. Shit... I was speechless and I'm speechless.

Arriving back at the hostel, mum phoned me to talked about my result. She gave me a piece of advice that I should continue studying hard. I told her I should not have scored such high marks in the 1st test. The reason is I'm afraid that the next time IF i scored a bad result, how will others view me? I added, IF i scored low on the 1st test, and next time i score high, people will praise me for my hard work and people will say i improved.

The consequence of getting a high marks now, increase my pressure in scoring a better result next time. Haiz... study study study... when could it end?

Gambateh lorh GG...